Happy St. Patrick’s Day

In honor of St. Patrick’s Day, I found two pictures of Jen from when she twirled in the St. Patrick’s Day parade in New York City. Nif, along with the rest of the Silver Starlites, twirl with the Dover High School marching band.



Better Late Than Never

I know, I know. It has been far too long since my last post, and I have no one to blame but myself. Life has been very busy, and I just have not found the time to sit down and blog. However, could not blogging be a good sign? A sign of growth, a sign that I have moved from grief to acceptance? Granted, I have my bad days here and there, but they are few and far between. More

Category is: Halloween

Last night I had a very vivid dream about Niff. Like crazy vivid, and I remember the whole thing. I woke up this morning, and have been repeating it over and over in my head so that I wouldn’t forget it.

In my dream, we were in some random kitchen, and Jen comes up to me and asks,

How do you play that game that goes ‘Category is: Halloween?‘”


The Smell of Flowers

They (they being scientists and psychologist) say that smell has one of the biggest impacts on memory. For me, this is especially true for the smell of flowers, and not so great memories.


Whole-Wheat Spaghetti with Lemon and Chicken

Last night I made myself something for dinner that I haven’t made since Jen passed away. I must have made it for myself one night for dinner, and Nif had some, and really enjoyed it. Going forward, whenever we were on our own for dinner, she would ask me to make it, and I always did.  After she passed away, I couldn’t really bring myself to make it, but last night I did (and it was quite tasty).


“Is that you sister?”

Yesterday, one of the sweetest things happened at work. One of my co-workers came into my office to ask a question about a project we are all working on.

Allow me to set the stage; I have a bookcase with various books and reference material on it, and on top of it are a few personal things:

  1. Picture of Jennifer and Me in my sister frame
  2. Picture of the Lobster and myself
  3. My Robot Necklace

Goodbye 2011, Hello 2012

No, this is not going to be a post about the world ending in 2012.

Rather, it is a reflection on the ending of the first year where my sister was not alive. I know I said something about this at the end of 2010, where a woman made a comment about the first New Years without her son, but now we are approaching the end of the first year with no Niff. As of right now, I am not as upset as I was last year, and I even have plans to go out this New Years Eve. It is just crazy to think how quickly 2011 passed, and that is has been just over 16 months since Jenn’s passing (hard to even comprehend).


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