Mother’s Day 2012

While many of you may have been celebrating Mother’s Day with a fancy brunch, I celebrated Mother’s Day in my garage and along side Rt. 9D in Cold Spring.

Saturday night, my Mom and Dad went to Cold Spring, and brought home the beautiful white cross that Jen’s friends made for her and put along the side of the road at the scene of her accident. The cross was leading pretty bad, and the wood was starting to fall apart in spots. My parents brought it home, and picked up supplies to reinforce the wood, so that it would keep its shape. Saturday night, I carefully went over all the writing to make sure the:


was bold and no longer fading away.


Dining Room Table and Kitchen Table

It is very weird how simple things like the placement of chairs can make a huge difference in how you feel.

Sunday was Easter, and just like last year, I had to color the eggs by myself. Except, this year, I had a system and enjoyed coloring all 23 eggs (I  should have had 24 eggs, but I needed to taste one before I colored it).


Dad’s CD No. 1

Last week, my car was in and out of the shop because I needed new tires and brakes. My dad let me borrow his car so I could get to work, and I would occasionally listen to the CDs he had in the CD changer. One such CD was a gift from Jen, where she burned all of my Dad’s favorite songs, along with a few other eclectic choices. Whenever I listen to the CD, I get choked up on certain songs, just because they have so much meaning behind them.

May I present to you my Dad’s CD No. 1:


Shift in Family Dynamics

Today, I was stumped for a new blog topic, and took to Twitter for help.

I reached out and asked, “Help! Need some great ides for an upcoming blog post,” to which @TheGriefToolBox replied:

“A post from a berieved sibling on family dynamics following your sisters death, what worked and what did not would help others.”

So, I am taking their advice and sharing with you the shift in family dynamic after Jen’s passing.


Sibling Survivor Guilt

I was trolling the interweb looking for possible new topics to blog about, and I cam across this article called, “Sibling Survivor Guilt: What It Is, How It Works,” by Bob Baugher, Ph.D, and thought it was an important read (and even more important to share).

Mr. Baugher lists the common types of sibling grief, and I’ve added my 2 cents:


Palm Rose & Cross

I feel very guilty that I have not blogged in a while. It has been a very busy past week or so, and I just have not had time to gather my thoughts. However, I’m back, and have lots of good stories to share.

Mom and Dad just got home from a week long vacation in San Diego, California. They stayed at this amazing hotel, and did lots of shopping at the cute little stores and boutiques along the beaches.


Happy Birthday To Me

Well, my birthday has come and gone, and I am another year older.Maybe it is due to the sucky timing, and the fact that my birthday is 21 days after Jen passed away, but I just don’t get as excited for my birthday anymore. I was the first one out of my family to have a birthday after Jen’s passing, and will always have the next family related event/birthday after her angel-versary.


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